This whole day has been off for me. I knew something was up when I felt a desire to clean. That just can't be normal. And then later I just had to make something. It was with the same need of a starving man reaching for food when I reached for my paints. And as I started brushing paint across my canvas, I wondered. Wondered if something might be wrong with me. Because, you see, I never just start something. I'm not the kind of person who can sit and paint a picture straight out of my head. I have to plan. To find models, ideas, and stock images. Place them just so. Draw it out. Trace it. Question it. Rinse and repeat.
But not tonight. Tonight I went on impulse. And I'm actually happy with the resulting work so far. Unusual. This energy. I don't know where it's come from. It's like I'm wired to a car battery. Been possessed by the Energizer bunny. Who knows.
But whatever it is, I am here now. Tapping on the keys slowly, so as not to wake anyone. Wondering exactly what I'm doing here. I don't really have anything important to say. Usually I come to this place when I have a message; something to get off my chest. Tonight... I'm just rambling. Like a train without tracks. I suppose it's fitting. I am the Queen of Derailment. Ah, well. Can't fight with the crown. Sometimes you just have to wear it.